Loveling

Standing on top of a hill
from up here i can see all you're thrills
i wish that i was yours to kill
i wish that i had left one last pill

Sleeping under the dark sea
from down here my dreams are as real as can be
i wish that i was yours to please
i wish that i had dropped to one knee

Broken Died

i can not lie to you my love
i'm broken apart by our words
i run and hide from both of us
But not for long i tell birds

i cannot cry on your new life
my screams are wet and died
my face dry cracked and bruised
i hate this song i've lied

my Little Misses

my little misses says
you can't run and you can't fly
i believe it when she says
you can't love if
You expect to die

When i see it in her lies
i'll believe it when she tries
there's nothing left behind closed eyes
my little misses runs and hides

Eye

i believe there's a place where we can go
where we'll always be held and never cold
i found this place so long ago
Through the exterior reality of your soul

i live in a world that no one knows
and now it's told that i'm too old
for if you cry my worlds exposed
And it dies so ever slow

Shadowing

Safe haven in a blanket of fears
confusion released by the years
i try to run far away
but it follows me night and day
always on the back of my mind
but my mind's left so far behind
just working my way through the pain
It's no wonder i'm going insane

Uninstitutionalizable

Bound in by chains of tears
cell walls consisting of mirrors
smiling faces melting to bone
haunting souls freezing to stone
trembling trees fearing the night
but using darkness as their light
subconscious world through a visual thought
mind triggered inspiration that's uncaught
for there are no boundaries limits or rules
i'm uninstitutionalizable

Tomorrows Yesterday

it's not because i'm lonely
although lonely i am
that's not the reason i'm feeling this
This i don't understand

Last night you said you were confused
believe me you're not alone
i'm just as blind as you if not more
And i have been for so long

i Don't so i

i don't want to cause an argument
so i will keep my responses inside
i don't want to inflict upon you pain
so i keep my distance with pride
i don't want to be the result of failed friendship
so i tell my heart it's a lie
i don't want for us to be apart
So i ask will you stay the night

i Hope So

Will i remember you when i'm insane
i love who i forgot again
will i think about you when i'm in bed
your image will not leave my head
will i die for you when i'm old
another story never told
will i still love you when i'm dead
You know i will for i have said

Liquid Fire

Pain filled tears burning my chin
my world is in chaos again
pouring flames from my eyes
all that's accomplished is failured tries
the smoke of tension limiting my sight
and then you take my only light
tears like fire racing down my face
Is there a way out of this place

Stain filled years burning all friends
wipe the love from tired eyes
inner blisters from all sins
All compassion is just lies

Loneliness

Life without a friend
life without a love
no one to talk to
nothing to enjoy
death is all i wish
Nothing more nothing less

i hide in the darkness
from what i don't understand
i run from shadows
that i can't comprehend
death is all i wish
It's just loneliness

Rotate Planet Dead

This side of the world is dying
indeed my friend without you
this time is the last of seven
What's a dead man have to lose

This side of the world is trying
to rebuild with parts all used
reconcile with a lover
In a world with hearts all bruised

Trust me i Know

The world will not stop turning
just because one's gone
no one will lose sleep
Or cry for very long

Soon they'll be referred to
as a fading memory
and after that forgotten
And that is what i see

Lovers And Liers

i can't think with an unappreciated mind
corrupted by lovers and liers
i can't live in an uncaring world
Filled with such morbid desires

i can't love with an unprotected heart
pouring out to everyone that i see
i can't die in an uncontrollable manner
But i'm already dead deep in me

Everything In Between

Together never
together again
only wasted time
a fight romance
a fight again
Already wasted mine

Falling Over You

Two peoples feelings
love and hate
all balled into one
the brightest gift
for darkest days
Who wants a sun

Getting To me

No matter how much
you tell me you care
it always seems rehearsed
it's hard for me to stay on top
When you say i'm the worst

December 25th

Love is nothing
if one can't pass the test
a failed father
and worthless lover
At my very best

Love is everything
only for those you care
and a no good rotten
preoccupied no one
me left standing here

Beauty Fool

What am i going to do
the whole world's in love with you
and you think i'm just a fool
i wish i was a beauty too
so i could be more like you
a priceless emotionless jewel
why is everyone so cruel
What am i going to do

What am i going to do
when ice storms in your heart brew
in a warm love filled life i grew
oh how i wish it was new
i'm still deep in love with you
my whole world's come unglued
and all of your dreams are true
What am i going to do

Blanket

Just to let me know you're thinking
just to let me know you're there
just so i can stop my worries
Just so i know that you care

Even if you can't talk too long
even if you're on the go
even just to hear your soft words
Even just to let me know